1 year has passed. .

It's been a year since I've been sulking over us. .
It's been a year since I've been waiting for the day for u to come home to me. .
It's been a year since everything was wonderful. .
It's been a year since u called me baby. .
It's been a year since everything was sooo close to perfect. .

However. .
It's been a year since u broke my heart. .
It's been a year since u wanted to stop the perfection. .
It's been a year since u walked away. .
It's been a year since I ever smiled so sincerely without feeling a tinge of unhappiness in me. .
It's been a year since I cry and cried a river. . .cried til' when I wanna cry, there are no tears. .
It's been a year since we were one. .

I. . .
never changed. .

I probably don't regret trying and trying again. .
Trying to make us one. .
I gave it my all. .
I never did that for anyone before. .
U're my first
U're the first
U're the first one I loved sooooo much. .
U're the first one who could hurt me soooo much too. .
I guess. . the more u care and love, the more it'll hurt. .

I looked past ur mistakes, did u look past mine?
Everyone makes mistakes and everyone deserves another chance. .
So do I. .

Sometimes, ppl ask me why I'm still stuck. .
I can't answer them. .
I don't even know why. .
Maybe it's cause I love him that much. .

My girlfriend asked me how can I stil be stuck despite being hurt over and over again. .
I don't know. .

The one thing I hope is that I can wake up from this. .
He can wake up from it and. .
We can all walk a mile in each other's shoes. .
Then, he will understand that everything I ever did. .was sincere and I really wanted it to happen. .
I in those months never did anything wrong to him. . The months he worngly assumed my sincereity. . or what it is I really wanted. .
And I. . might understand him and why he did what he did. .

I made couple of wrong turns but we all did. .
It's just a matter of making the wrong turn, the right turn. .
Forgiving is easy. . forgetting. . that's another story. .
IF u can't forget, u can't give someone another chance. .

Will that be a regret?
Is that worth it?

Food for thought. .


My regret?
Not trying harder than I did. .
Maybe one day when things settle and ur mind is clear. . u will know how much I love u and how much I will sacrifice for u. .
maybe. . just maybe..


Sorry for hurting u. . I never intended to. .
Sorry for not trying harder. .
Also. . all I ever thought of doing was to make u happy. .
U can scoff at it but that's the truth. .
(it's a secret but hey. . one leak. . everything I did was for u)


~♥ ♥ ♥~