Daily Bite - 31.3.11

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it I already know I don't deserve it But if it's from you I don't mind hurting This is my perfect nightmare. . So, when will I wake up and scream "No Way! No Way! No way!" ?? But if it's from you I don't mind hurting This is my perfect nightmare. . Perfect nightmare. . ~ ♥ ~

Ugly Truth

In life, there are many ugly truths such as. .

i) Good things doesn't always go to those who wait.
ii) Karma sometimes bite the individual's ass a little too late.
iii) Life is full of ups and downs.
iv) A good person doesn't always get good returns.
v) Life is unfair.
vi) People come and go.
vii) Some people just can't get (understand) it.
viii) People often have doubts.
ix) Not everyone is given a chance to love and be loved.
x) Regrets stray in your memory and life forever.
xi) It's hard to make decisions.
xii) It's hard to communicate and get your message accross to some people.
xiii) People can feel negative feelings/emotions such as hurt and pain.
xiv) Loving is very extreme. It either makes u very happy or very hurt.
xv) People take things for granted.

But, the ugliest truth among all the ugly truths is that you were never really there. . .

~ ♥ ~

Daily Bite - 5.3.11

I learned that the person u can trust the most to be there for u whenever, wherever, and in whatever situation without fail is urself. .

Note to self:
I need to stand by what should be done and not get influenced so easily whether by u, the connection, or the emotions. .
Thing that has to be done:
i) I need to care less
ii) I need to love less . . . because u couldn't care less nor love more. . .

~ ♥ ~

It's been confirmed. .

it's vitiligo. .
Anyway, I have a baby rottie that is 4 and a half months old now. .
When he first came, I was uber excited to take care of him as his main owner. .
Well, lotsa responsibilities and he does test my patience a lot. .
Nevertheless, he is super smart, adorable, hyperactive, loving, and responsive. .
FYI, this is my baby lexy. . Lexy is a nick name derived from his real name, Galaxy. .

Baby Lexy on his first day at home ♥

He has a tummy!! so adorable :))

and did i mention he is rather expressive :x

when he is cold, he rolls up into a "ball" :)

note his fur. .perfectly black and shiny. .

btw, it's super soft too

how can u not fall for a face like that??

with his new boneeee ~

:)

he joined in the fun when we opened our CNY hampers :)

priceless :)

this is how big he is now. .

tall and broad :D

big boy d!

and yet, he still has that face u can't say no to :)

Did I mention he was super active and all. . ?

Anyway, he has an autoimmune disease which is known as vitiligo. .

I noticed strands of white fur around his body but it wasn't very obvious at first. .

Slowly by slowly, more grew and I got worried. .

I did my research and found a possibility, 'vitiligo'. .

I read it was not curable and absorbed all the info about it.

Then, I saw pics of rotties having it. .

I burst into tears.. .

Will my baby lexy be like that?

Usually vitiligo is evident only during adulthood although it might've started during the dog's childhood. .

Does that mean he will keep getting whiter and whiter til he becomes grey?

Will his nose turn pink?

Will he be affected by anything at all?

I was super worried. .

Then, Lexy was taken to the vet. .

My biggest fear came true. .

He has vitiligo. .

It is confirmed. .

Vitiligo is so rare! Probably 1 in 2 million dogs have it. .

WHY LEXY???

WHY MY BABY LEXY???

;(

he is getting whiter and whiter. .

I love u lexy ♥

4 and a half months old that looks like. .

It only started around a month ago and got super bad within 2 weeks. .

Both sides of his body are very white. .

Face, back, neck, body, paws, everywhere are getting whiter. .

This is the worst of his whole body at the moment. .

sigh. .

I hope it really wont harm him. .

But its an autoimmune disease. . Sounds terrible!

I can't get over it. .

Everyday I look at him, every time I look at him. . my heart breaks. .

How can I get over it?

If it's just physicality then it's not an issue to me. . No matter how he will look like, I will love him with all my heart forever and always. .

But will his health be affected?

And great, he needs to avoid the sun. . Less play time and running around for poor lexy. .

Sigh. .

Lexy. . why lexyy??

And to think. . .it's likely to keep getting worse. .

I love u baby lexy no matter what happens. . Forever and always ~♥


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