It's Just One Day

28th February. . .
This date marks a lot of things to me. .
Obvious enough, it's the end of the month.

To me,
It's the end of CNY 2010. .
It's the end of my uni break. .
It's the beginning of classes again. .
It's the last day before I step into a new phase in my life. .
It's the "deadline" day. .
It marks half a year. .

Questions, queries, doubts, thoughts, memories, decisions. . .
Here we go again ~
Welcome back into my life (unfortunately)

Another Good Day ^^V

Today I woke up at 12:30 PM! WOOHOO!! Record breaking!

Again, I had a nightmare. . It's a pretty stupid nightmare but still it's a nightmare. Makes u think and wonder. Makes u think about it in reality. .

Anyway, there was a potluck thingy at my place today! :D



Raimi's "extra spicy mee mamak"
It was yummy and it made boboy full (mee mamak + water = overdose) :D
I had to do something for him only would he cook it on his own. . How demanding ><
Thank u for the effort :D

Pizza Hut CNY Special Pizza

OMG!! I loved it to bits. . Lime-ish taste and got "cheese balls" as the crust !

mmmm mmmmm mmmm! :D

Boboy surprised me with KFC's prawn nuggets. It's actually RM 6 for 4 pieces and he brought 40 pieces! YUM YUM YUM~ !

Boboy cooked KFC!!! YAY!!!

Half orginial, half hot & spicy :P

YUMMMYY!! This was everyone's favourite !!

It was finger lickin' good :P

My macaroni salad :P

Shi Wei brought tau fu fa :P

It was actually good. Smooth and yummy ! Good for skin. .

Shi Wei's chicken satay. . .

He complained it was too burnt :S

Steffi brought currypuff. .

It was actually very good just that everyone was too full to eat more of it :X

Just the 5 of us and an overdose of food. .

Thank u for making it happen!!

I had a great time :D

xo-s

P.S. Sometimes I talk too much for my own good. Shikes :S I just tend to say the wrong things at the wrong time :X It's time to learn how to shut my mouth, zip it, lock it and throw the key away. :X

Nightmares

Sometimes we just want some good peaceful sleep and we get nightmares!
I've been having nightmares for 3 nights straight already.
On another note, I always wonder what dreams mean. What do dreams tell us?

It's funny how the most unpredictable things happen in life. It's fun if it's something happy, exciting and to shout about but so cruel if it's otherwise.
Why do some people get what they don't deserve? Is life just unfair or are there reasons to explain that?

After last night's dream, it strengthened the fear and doubts I've been having recently. It's funny how I used to be so sure of things that nothing and noone could change my mind and now, something or many factors are actually changing it. .

So, what is it? What's bothering me? Why do I keep having nightmares?
Why don't I get some good peaceful sleep?

xo-s


P.S "best words of the day" by boboy :)

X says:
now now
don't let it get to you
before you know it
you'll stop eating it cause it's cute

HAHA. . u're damn cute la :)

Thought of The Day ~

Sometimes we wanna say or do something but we decide not to.
Then, we go home and think whether we should have said/done it or stick to not saying/doing it. Then, we keep thinking about what to do. .
How it would be if we said/done it and if we didn't. .
Think about the best decision
And finally, we still don't know which would be better. .
In the end, we stick to promises and things we told ourselves to do. .
Things we always wanted to see/feel/hear and be in. . , well, at least that's what I do. .

To me, it would be to make/see u happy no matter what happens. . :)

xo-s

When Will It Be My Time?

I want my freeedom!!!
I'm 20 this year!
20!
And I need to ask permission still? I mean I don't mind but I need valid reasons! Not crummy reasons like I go out too often when I haven't been!
:(
I have been stuck at home due to the EGM and all I want is to spend the remaining of my holiday as I like. I wanna make full use of it. It's just 2 more weeks. . why?

It's not like I will be going out for the whole day either. It's just like a few hours. Plus I never disrupted any plans and I take the initiative to still rush over to join in whatever occasions or meals even when I don't have to just for courtesy purposes.

SIGH!

I think I deserve it. .

:'(

CNY started on 3rd day. . well, at least for me :D

I've been waiting for today for a long time already !!!
Well, I was waiting for the food la. . Sambal sotong, sambal egg, curry, roti canai.. . . YUMM!!!!!
Fat Fat Fat but nvm! EAT & BE HAPPY!!!



10 lions this year :D

I know we've got good taste man. . red and white :D

would u believe me if I said we pakat? :P

I just love to ruin pictures, don't I? :D

My bestfriend and his boyfriend, takpe boboy, I take 1, 3, 5, 7 u take 2, 4, 6. . .

kidding la. . :P

PA & MUMMY

New gazebo ! Hoi Cheong!!!

I like the colour of the dragon this year :P

Thanks for coming ! Lotsa love !

My high school gang! Thanks for coming !

Lotsa love !

Muka dier tu sungguh besar :D

MY boboy :D

Shit Wei. . Thanks for rushing over asap :)

They stayed on til' after dinner. since we don't wanna gamble nor drink, we came up with a new punishment for the loser(s). . Pukul tangan!

My hand was bruised man. . Co hit me damn hard!

Overall, no pain, no gain. . I still enjoyed it :P

AND, now for the surprise of the night. .. .

Raimi gave me a Valentine's day present. . .

It's to replace my "broken heart". .

Thank u so so so so so much. .

I really don't know what to say nor what to feel.

I just stoned and nothing went through my mind. . I actually went blank. .

ME . . chatterbox. . became speechless. . :X
He gave me a card as well. He and boboy hid it under my pillow. .

My dearrrrr Watson asked me to check under my pillow which i didn't. .

Thank u so so so much for the present. .

All u ppl are really special to me

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

xo-s

I Do It For U ~

It's the 2nd day of CNY!
Miri grandparents and relatives came down to join us as we didn't go back to Miri this CNY. .WOOHOO!

Let's see, I was so bored I decided to go out for a movie today after lunch. Well, the surprising thing was that the cinemas were full! Almost all were full! It's friggin scary. Unexpected ><

Dinner with Miri grandparents, Kho family from Miri. Uncle Pang and Uncle Jeffrey. Che paid for this dinner with her first ever earned salary! weee ~ :D

Kim che che and Wan Nee :D

As I was making the requested cookies, this little girl ws so bored that she went out to talk to Faizal. She calls him Uncle Baizhan :D HAHAHA !

More con cookies !!

I started making them as soon as I came home from dinner. It took me quite long as I was talking to my cousin whom I was never really close to. I can't believe we actually talked for so so so long. Haha. Improvement! woohoo!

Well, I kena screwed up nicely by mummy cause everyone was busy and I pula nicely go make cookies but oh well. Co wanted them too sooo. . .

Actually, I promised to make these mostly for somebody. These are to make that somebody happy. . Like I said before, I'll do anything to make u happy and I hope these will pass the test . .

Sorry the first batch is a little cacat. I had some technical difficulties but the second batch looks and tastes good to me :)

xo-s

It BROKE!!!

MY heart broke !! :'(
okay. . not literally but the heart from the pendant fell off. .
that pendant is so important to me. .
I CANT FIND THE HEART!!

WHAT A CRUMMMMY DAY!!
Now it won't ever be the same anymore. No more "pair" :(

It's the 1 thing that is a so called pair thingy after what happened last year. . Now, it's gone!! no more!!

maybe it's a sign. .
hmmmmnnnn. . .

P.S I hope I can find it :'(

Double Happiness. . supposedly

It's the 1st day of CNY!! woohoo!! *yea right*
It's Valentine's Day!!! weeeee!!! *poooooooo*




Valentine's Day. . Hmm. . I can't even recall what happened on vday last year. . What did I do? Where did I go?
Well, back to the same old vday I've celebrated for 19 years of my life (excluding last year).
What is valentine's day without a valentine?
Hmmn. . well, it's still valentine's day dedicated to all the once I love such as my family and friends I guess :)
Love u all !
mwah!! :D

"Con" cookies personally made for my loved ones :)

Sorry I messed it up a little bit! Practice makes perfect aye ! :D

What is a reunion dinner without the love of my life? YEE SANG!!! :D

Well, this year is one of those years where we decided not to go back to Miri. . It feels like something is missing. .The traditional thingys and the reunion dinner.. It feels so different :(

It doesn't feel like CNY at all!!

No fireworks at 12 a.m. sharp whereby we watched from the hotel in Miri. We always booked the same hotel room so that we can get the best view of the fireworks in Miri. This year, all I hear is *feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee POW*. . I didn't even see a single spark !! :((((

At least "cek cek" and "asim" came over for the reunion dinner. . It really made a big difference! It felt like CNY in those few hours. . I can't believe we joked about the mushroom and his wife, farmer and his wife and all those nutheads that caused problem in pa's company!

Damn funny! :P

Karaoke was good too! I became the technical staff and cheerleader! woohoo! This is the first time we heard pa and cek cek duet man! Damn nice!! :D

It's like 2:52 and I'm online on CNY 1st day! All I wanna say is BUMMER!!

I feel damn depressed~

No valentine, no CNY atmosphere!

Story of my life !!!

But still, I just wanna say "heheeeeee :D"

Happy Valentine's Day & Happy Chinese New Year !!

xo-s

Beside You. .

When your tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
When it's in your spine like you've walked for miles
And the only thing you want is just to be still for a while


If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you


When you're overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
Where the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless.
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud


If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you


I will stay.
Nobody will break you,
Yeah.

Trust in me, trust in me.
Don't pull away
Trust in me, trust in me.
I'm just trying to keep this together, because I could do worse and you could do better


Tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you


If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you. . . .




I'll do anything to make u happy. . .
xo-s

Just A Girl

I'm just a girl with needs and wants. .
One of 'em that loves attention, a lot of care and love. .
One of 'em that wants manja and time. .
One of em' that needs to know and feel that I'm in good hands. .

Sometimes, it's so annoying especially when I can't control it and even I can't stand myself. .
What more other ppl?

xo-s

I just wanna know. . .

Who am I to u ?
How special am I to u?


Go figure !

xo-s

Nobody is Perfect

One wise person once told me,
"U don’t love someone despite their flaws, u love them because of it"

It took me some time to really absorb and think about it. .Well, nobody is perfect, that I know.
However, why is it so hard to accept certain things sometimes?
Maybe it proves u care too much?

xo-s

First Step !

OMG OMG OMG!!!
I was talking to boboy (xinghan) and suddenly we both agreed I should start blogging!
Me sayang boboy !!

It's 3:30 AM and we both still got lots to talk and "bitch" about. .
Today, I read xiaxue's blog and got super touched by her love story !!
It sounds so unbelieveable and the video of her proposal is so friggin COOOL !
AHHH ! It just makes u melt . .. :D
I guess it's really hard to find someone that really loves u for who u are and accepts u as a whole package. .
To me, I want someone who loves me more than I love him. I know I would love him a lot so if he loves me more than I love him, I would be the happiest and most bahagia girl in this world ! woohoo ! :P


Then, I decided to be more adventurous and went to this website boboy gave me. . It's a website where u chat with random ppl whom are just known as "Strangers". . I thought it was pretty awesome so I decided to check it out. .
The first message I got from a "stranger" was. . . .
"Hello are you interested in seeing a picture of my nice looking cock?"
HAHAHAH !!!! I left immediately. .

The second stranger left when I asked "how u doin?"
The third stranger was the weirdest. .
Apparently, he or she is a 14 year old with schizophrenia. . I douht I should write what we talked about because it got pretty freaky that boboy told me to LEAVE ! Well, it's a little eerie and the only thing boboy could say was "hahahaha" to it. . What more can he say and react to such an eerie conversation. . :S
HAHAHA !


Owh well! It's almost time for bed !
I've got some weird pening feeling and a little uncomfortness in my tummy!
WHAT A DAY !!

However, I stilll have to go to bed eventhough i got excited over my msn date with boboy !
weeeeeee ~

Til' next time,
mwah ! xo-s