Terpengsan. .

What a crazy crazy day!!!

This was the first day I terpengsan due to being a girl and having monthly visits from some stupid aunty. .
ISH!!
Thank u evie for "saving" me. .
Sorry I freaked the hell out of u ><
I also don't know why I suddenly couldn't hear evie and I see black blotches as I blink :X
I knew I was going down,down, down, down, down. .
Evie said "THANK GOD U'RE OKAY!" when I sms-ed her later.
heehee. . Thank u evie and sorry for friggin scare the daylight out of u ♥

And to think how come this time no pain wan!!
Some more can celebrate then suddenly the pain all come one shot, I K.O!!
giler coooooooooooool :X


Assignment and presentation!!! Here I COME!!

xo-s

Stress!

I've been hungry, hungry, hungry non stop!!
I wake up, have breakkie on the way to uni (1st meal). Then, after the 2 hours lecture, I feel hungry again, I snack on juice or something "small" (2nd meal). After that, go for another lecture and then it's lunch time (3rd meal). After lunch, go lepak all. At around 5+, I'll be hungry again (4th meal). Then, it's time to mandi all and and have dinner (5th meal). After that, watch some tv, lepak a bit and at around 10+/11 I will be hungry again (6th meal)!!
Someone please stop me !!! :(((((((((((((((

I guess that means I'm blardy stressed up!
Assignment is due next Friday and I'm still damn lost!
Also, I've got a presentation next Thursday and I haven't started anything!!
UGH!!!!!!


P.S Lock it up and stash it away! Not at a time like this. .
xo-s

Are You Crying Your Heart Out?

Hold up!
Hold on!
Don't be scared,
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile, (may your smile)
Shine on, (shine on)
Don't be scared, (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm,

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

Get up, (get up)
Come on, (come on)
Why you scared? (I'm not scared...)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded awayJust try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

We're all of the stars,
We're fading away.
Just try not to worry,
You'll see us someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out. . .

One moment to let it alllllllll outtttttttt

stupid
stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid stupid
stupid stupid
stupid

STUPID ME!

The Only Thing I Can Do Is To Wish. . .

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you're faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you

And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin' til you find the window
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back but you never forget
All the ones who love you and the place you left
I hope you always forgive and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get

Oh, you'd find God's grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah more than anything

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish, yeah yeah

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish
(My wish for you)

This is my wish(My wish for you)
I hope you know somebody loves you
(My wish for you)
May all your dreams stay big
(My wish for you). . . .


I'll always be around for u :)
xo-s

These Five Words. .

It's hard for me to say the things

I want to say sometimes

There's no one here but you and me

And that broken old street light

Lock the doors

We'll leave the world outside

All I've got to give to you

Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes when I couldn't see for

Parting my lips when I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream

Until that dream was you

When I look into your eyes

The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart

I wear no disguise

If I tried, you'd make believe

That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes when I couldn't see

For parting my lips when I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down

You ring the bell before they count me out

If I was drowning you would part the sea

And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah

Lock the doors

Leave the world outside

All I've got to give to you

Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes oh, when I couldn't see

You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly

Oh, you gave me wings

You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me

Oh for loving me

Thank u for loving me and who I am. .
Loving the way I am. .
Now, spread ur wings ~

Lot's of love from me as always, xo-s


P.S. A moment of silence for Ganesh. . Rest In Peace.

Let's Get Through These Hard Times ~

Morning falls like rain,

Into the city life, there goes another night.

Losing my breath in waves,

Knowing that every crash, is bleeding the hour glass.

Taking the strife, from all our lives.

Everyone keeps talking,

They'll promise you everything, they don't mean anything.

We may lose our focus,

There's just too many words, we're never meant to learn.

And we don't feel so alive.

Say goodbye, these days are gone,

And we can't, keep holding on,

When all we need, is some relief,

Through these hard times.

Move your hands in circles,

Keeping me hypnotized, the power behind your eyes.

Move around your bedroom,

Cursing the naked sky, you should be here tonight.

But you stay alone and cry.

Say goodbye, these days are gone,

And we can't, keep holding on,

When all we need, is some relief,

Through these hard times.

There's something missing,

You'll never feel it but you,

You're gonna feel it when its gone,

When its gone.

Say goodbye, these days are gone,

And we can't, keep holding on,

When all we need, is some relief,

Through these hard times.

These hard times, hard times, hard times,

Say goodbye, these days are gone,

Say goodbye, these days are gone,

These days are gone. . .

Who are You?

The world is. . well, spinning?

No matter what happens, time won't stop.
Whatever we do, the world won't stop spinning just to wait for us. .
How unfortunate.
The worst part. .
LIFE IS UNFAIR. .maybe. .
I don't know :X

HOW CAN LEE CHONG WEI WIN LIKE THAT?!?!?!
I mean, IT WAS OUT LAA!!!
DAMN KESIAN KENICHI TAGO!!!! :'(
DAMN GERAM!!!!
I don't even know why. . I mean of course I supoort lee chong wei but that's not how u win a BIG TOURNAMENT!!!
Pity the fella :(
SIGH!!!!!
He fought so hard for it and then he lost because of human error! AND IT WASN'T EVEN HIS ERROR!!!!
GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(


U know, sometimes u don't know who to trust in life. .
I mean, u don't know who is telling the truth, u don't know what's going on and u don't know what others have done to u behind ur back. .
U don't know who is sincere and who is just putting up a good show. .
U don't know who u can trust to tell things to and. . .
What can u tell, what can u not tell?

Sometimes, just saying something wrong spoils everything!
Sometimes ppl hear "A" but they tell "B" or "A+B". . (just like playing chinese whispers)
It's inevitable unfortunately. . We're only human. .


On another note, my eyes are swollen because of dust and now I'm more blinded than before. .
Mummy once told me, don't trust anybody in this world. Not even ur own mother. .
She said she had to put it in such a harsh way so that we would listen and follow it.

I don't know what to do now. All I know is that my eye is itchy, it hurts, it's uncomfortable and I'm blinded inside out. .
Too bad for me!
Well, life goes on and I'm ready for it!
:)

xo-s

You oughta know. .

Baby are you down down down down down,

Down, Down,

Even if the sky is falling down,

Down, down

Ooh (ohhh)

You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,

Put on a show, I wanna see how you lose control,

So leave it behind 'cause we, have a night to get away,

So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

So baby don't worry, you are my only,

You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,

You'll be my only, no need to worry,

Baby are you down down down down down,

Down, Down,

Baby are you down down down down down,

Down, Down,

Even if the sky is falling down,

Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,

I'll take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway,

So leave it behind 'cause we, have a night to get away,

So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,

(So why don't we run away)

So baby don't worry, you are my only,

You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,

You'll be my only, no need to worry,

Baby are you down down down down down,

Down, Down,

Baby are you down down down down down,

Down, Down,

Even if the sky is falling down,

(LiL Wayne) (this probably isn't my part ><)

Even if the sky is falling down like she supposed to be,

She gets down low for me,

Down like her temperature, 'cause to me she zero degrees,

She cold, overfreeze, I got that girl from overseas,

Now she my miss America,

Now can I be her soldier please, I'm fighting for this girl,

On a battlefield of love,

Don't it look like baby cupid sendin arrows from above,

Don't you ever leave the side of me,

Indefinitely, not probably,

And honestly I'm down like the economy,

Yeahhhhhh

So baby don't worry, you are my only,

You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,

You'll be my only, no need to worry,

Baby are you down down down down down,

Down, Down,

Baby are you down down down down down,

Down, Down,

Even if the sky is falling down

I really wanna know what's going through ur mind. .

I really wanna be there for u too. .

I really want u to know how sorry I am. . :(

It's a mess and I'm a mess. .

I'm really, really sorry that u have to bear with me always and compromise with me. .

I'm sorry I can't give much. . .

I'm sorrrrrrry!!!!!!!!!!! :(

and,

THANK YOU!!!

Thank u for being there for me. .

Thank u for understanding me and my situation. .

Thank u for giving in to me. .

Thank u for the care. .

Thank u for the time. .

Thank u for cheering me up. .

Thank u for making me smile. .

Thank u for being so sweet. .

Thank u for just being U to ME. .

Thank u, thank u, thank u. . . FOR EVERYTHING!

Baby. .Please don't break my heart slow. .

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken do you mean
Do you mean what you say. .
When you say our love to last forever

(Chorus)
But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you'd sing to me
Everytime that things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken do you say
Do you say what you mean
When you say our love could last forever

(Chorus)
Cause I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

(Bridge)
You would run around and lead me on forever
While I stay at home still thinking we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

(Chorus)
But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
And I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

Baby. . don't you break my heart slow~


SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I. . .need u now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and
I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and
I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and
I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and
I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and
I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and
I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Ooo, baby, I need you now

Kim of The Boulevard :)

Down in a local bar

Out on the Boulevard

The sound of an old guitar

Is saving you from sinking

It's a long way down, It's a long way

Back like you never broke

You tell a dirty joke

He touches your leg

And thinks he's getting close

For now you let him

Just this once

Just for now

And just like that

It's over.

[Chorus]Don't turn away

Dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Don't be afraid

But keep it all inside, all inside

When you fall apart

Dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Life is always hard

For the Kim of the Boulevard

In all your silver rings

In all your silken things

That song you softly sing

Is keeping you from breaking

It's a long way down, it's a long way

Back here you never lost

You shake the shivers off

You take a drink

To get your courage up

Can you believe it?

Just this once

Just for now

And just like that

It's over

[Chorus]Don't turn away

Dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Don't be afraid

But keep it all inside, all inside

When you fall apart

Dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Life is always hard

For the Kim of the Boulevard

Please hold on, it's alright

Please hold on, it's alright

Please hold on

Down in a local bar

Out on the boulevard

The sound of an old guitarIs saving you

[Chorus]Don't turn away

Dry your eyes, dry you eyes

Don't be afraid

Keep it all inside, all inside

When you fall apart

Dry your eyes, dry your eyes

Life is always hard

For the Kim of the Boulevard. . . . . .

Ai Chuo ?

bei feng hao bu liu qing ba ye zi chui luo zhui luo

de ta xuan ze de tao tuo

ye zi shi qu xiao xin feng cai gan jue ji mo

zheng ge dong tian bei feng de tong mei ren neng shuo

wo cong lai mei xiang guo

wo hui zhe yang zuo cong lai mei ai guo suo yi ai cuo

wo cong na li qi fei cong na li jiang luo

duo shao bu neng yuan liang de cuo que bu neng chong lai guo

fan kai hui yi jiao luo wan mei de sheng huo

yi wei xing fu dou ke yi zhang wo

zi xi hui wei dang chu na ge gu shi bei hou ...oh yuan lai shi wo

fan xia cong mei cheng ren de cuo

wo cong lai mei xiang guo

wo hui zhe yang zuo cong lai mei ai guo suo yi ai cuo

wo cong na li qi fei cong na li jiang luo

duo shao bu neng yuan liang de cuo que bu neng chong lai guo

zai zhe shao le ni de shi jie..Wo

zhao bu hui na xie gan jue qi shi wo bu xiang gao bie..na xie guo qu

wo cong lai mei xiang guo

wo hui zhe yang zuo cong lai mei ai guo

(cong lai mei you ai guo na mo ren zhen)

wo cong na li qi fei cong na li jiang luo (jiang luo)

duo shao bu neng yuan liang de cuo que bu neng zhong

cong lai mei xiang guo wo hui zhe yang zuo

cong lai mei ai guo (ai guo) suo yi ai cuo (suo yi ai cuo)

cong na li qi fei (ai cuo ai cuo ai cuo baby)

duo shao bu neng yuan liang de cuo

qing ni yuan liang wo de ai cuo....

Have You Ever. .

Have u ever felt this strange feeling inside of u where u just don't know how to describe it?


It feels like something is missing or something is just wrong but u don't know what. .
It makes u feel all messed up, not focused in anything u do and just tangled!
It makes decisions so hard to make and anything easy, so hard to do. .
It makes u want to just lie down and do nothing BUT. . doing nothing only makes it worst because ur hands want to do something, anything. .
However, u don't know what it is u're doing. . just anything. . get it?
It makes u sweat even when it's cold and makes u zone out even when u're doing something really interesting. .

Have u ever felt that?

I have and I'm feeling it right now. .
What's missing? What's wrong?
I have no idea. . .

I just want to say this. . . *excuse me*
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH CCCCCCCCCRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!

Changes in Life?

What changes ur life?
Maybe a certain word. .
Maybe a certain situation. .
Maybe a certain something said. .
Maybe a certain somebody. .
Or maybe just something that happens out of nowhere. .

Whatever it is, a change in life is never easy. .
The worst part is that things will never be the same again. .
Well, unless it's a change for the better, then congratulations to u. .


xo-s

The Moment ~

Were u ever in this moment where u were telling something of the past, some kind of fond memory to some one, such as. .
"There was this one time, we/ I. . . . "

and suddenly. . .
U look down, sigh to urself and say "Well, that was the past."

Have u ever been in a situation where u and someone are reminiscing the good times u both had together, such as. .
e.g. "Remeber that time we. . . ."
"Do u remember ur reaction when I. . . ."
"That time u. . . . ., I was. . . "

And u both laugh about it or just smile about it. .
Then, u look down, sigh to urself and quietly murmur to urself "Well, that was the past."


Well, it happens to me everyday of my life. .
Sometimes I wish that I could go back to the past. Not to change the past but to experience all those fond memories again. .


Maybe it's the incompleteness. .


xo-s